So two months down in my first space alone. I have had many visitors which very welcome. It's amazing how many people you can sleep in 700 sq. feet! Cocoa and Stoli are slowly adjusting. Cocoa isn't chewing the front door down anymore thanks to the metal place E placed on it! She seems to cry less in the morning when I leave for work. I walk them each evening when I get home or better yet the run me. Being confined to a small space I feel guilty so we walk every night for 45 minutes or so. The walks are nice the lakes that surround me and the beautiful homes make it a nice walk. Then they run around in the front and chase the squirrels and lizards for a while (their favorite past time). Dinner is a challenge for me. Miss my big perfect dream kitchen ): I thought it was just cooking for me not really fun but learned it triggers fond memories of cooking with "S" one of our favorite things to do together. It is getting easier and slowly but surely I'm trying to cook something every other night or so. Can't live on PBJ's alone after all! I've started working out a little too, this not only helps me physically but mentally as well. Fortunately the evenings seem to pass quickly and before I know it, its time for bed! This is pretty much a day in the life of me. Me being me I worry about leaving the dogs alone a home to much so don't really leave once I'm home a night. I do try to keep busier on the weekends, these are the hardest times. Too much down time for me...NOT HEALTHY... my mind can be my worst enemy. I'm working on this too! So much work in progress you'd think I'd be over this by now. On the positive side, I am getting stronger everyday and the pain only comes and goes now in small drips an drabs so this is good. I miss the companionship most, I was born to be part of a couple, at least I thought? Maybe not?
On a positive note...my grandson is due to arrive within weeks now. He is growing strong and healthy and I saw his little face last week on a sonogram photo, it is amazing how clear they are now. He looks like Nick from what I could tell so far. He has many loved ones anxiously awaiting his arrival. Nick and Gladys' shower is April 16th and I hope to have them settled into their own place within the next six months, this they need badly. God has been very good at answering my prayers so I'm praying one more for them to be strong, patient and loving parents to my GRANDSON, they have a long road of love, joy, happiness, and heartbreak ahead of them. It is inevitable, they are going to be PARENTS. Wow my baby, a parent, a Daddy where or where did the time go? If only I could have kept him 2 years old forever. Well I will be here every step of the way of his new journey just like always. I LOVE YOU NICHOLAS...
